The most powerful meditation I’ve ever done. Amazing healing energies came through.   I feel like I’ve released in the first sitting some of the reasons I got breast cancer.   Namaste

Lynne

I have been listening to the Self-Love Meditation over and over again for the past week. It definitely touches me to the core of my being. I have begun to realize how much I don’t love myself due to lots of trauma early on in my life. However, with this meditation, I have seen that it is possible to live in the present moment and be released from the negative feelings & emotions of my past. It is possible to really love my self from my soul. I can now release the disconnection feelings I previously held onto. This has paved the way for me to have an openness with my therapist as never before. I am now working through issues where previously I was stuck in shame & guilt to the point that I was unable to have a meaningful dialogue with her. Now things are coming to the surface where I can face my deepest fears & be released from them. Thanks so much for making this available to me!

Sue

“What a blessing you are to me! This meditation is helping me to release deep seated emotional pain from utero on. To be trapped in sorrow for so many years and not have the tools to heal is truly crucifying. I cannot thank you enough for sharing your gifts with those like myself longing to become whole and complete. God’s blessings on you and yours!”

Linda M

Niki thank you so much for the self love meditation.

I've always felt I’ve lived my life ‘on the outside looking in’ at others and their groups!! Having had a childhood where I was very tearful and hated being left at school, understandably, I had no friends. Listening to your beautiful beautiful meditation, it was a complete eye opener to me that it wasn’t my fault I had been like that. I naturally turned it all around when I arrived at secondary school but oh my goodness, what a first 11 years!! Thank you Niki. I find all this Emotional experience analysis so much more exciting and interesting that nutritional therapy. Very kind regards.

Warmest Wishes Christine

“I just wish to tell you that your meditation exercise is very extraordinarily unique.  I had tried other meditation exercises, but I am not sure what is the special ingredient/s or recipes which made your meditation so special, that I find my brain longs to go back to that parasympathetic state when I listen to your meditations.  As a result, suddenly I have self-awareness that my brain has always been in a state of fight, flee and freeze, so I need to retrain my neural connections to be calm, grounded and mindful of who I am, by constantly visualise and re-direct my brain to that calm and restful state when I listen to your meditations.I just wish to say thank you to you Niki for so generously sharing your meditations to help people to grow out of their traumatic neural states.“

HC

“And especially, I want to say thank you for your meditation. I’ve long appreciated how useful (essential?) meditation is in healing, but I have struggled so much with it. So, I haven’t ever given up on the idea of using meditation, and I thought I would try yours just to see how it went. Anyway, I’ve now been using your meditation every day for the past 10 days and I love it. Finally, it’s something I can actually sit through, and I can feel things shifting. I’m so grateful.”

Katie D

Bonjour Niki,

Thanks again for the opportunity to tap in to the field of self worth and inner peace through your meditation sessions. I’m beginning to understand the word ‘serenity’ now. Bless you.

Neil W

Thank you Niki and team for these most gracious and wondrous gifts. These offerings are invaluable.Continue the wonderful healing work that you do. Namaste.

Celia S

Excellent, I love- love- love this meditation!!!

Thank you so much – Dee

A WORLD of sincere heartfelt thanks! I LOVE your Self-Love meditation. Your gifts here are very special and truly appreciated MORE than you will ever know! I’ve already experienced a lot of benefit from it.  BLESSINGS to you for the fine & exceptional work you are doing and contributing to the healing of the planet.

Tricia H

I love both of these so much!!!!

Thank you 

Donna P

Niki, I absolutely love you and your information and material you cover and especially I have found your speaking voice to be so helpful in my adapting to guided meditation Thank you so much for being you 

Rob H

Thank you so much Niki. They are fantastic meditations and I did not want to be without them, so double gratitude.  Kind wishes Veronica 

Hello Niki,

Thank you for the gifts of you meditations. I love them

Denise V

Beautifully done and served as a welcome release.

Amy S

Dear Niki,

Right now I am so full of gratitude for the beautiful words and perfectly gentle angelic music of your meditation. My body had quite a visceral response from deep within my physical self..and it was so healing. Tears gently flowed out and upward.  Instinctively I curled up with one hand on my shoulder and my other arm around my torso. Your gentle voice guided me to go very deep…lots of connections to this lifetime healed profoundly when my tiny child knew for certain I did nothing wrong.

More healing will come each day.

I AM eternally greatful!

Debbie K

I have had the opportunity now to do both of your meditations for the last few days! Thanks again for giving them to folks like me!! I sincerely found them to be the best that I have encountered thus far in my journey. Hope to work more with you at the next offering of your class.

All the best,

Michael T

Thank you for the meditations.

I listen for short intervals,  then pause in silence to absorb and reflect.

I like that the voice is quieter than the music.

David K

Very soothing. I feel better about myself.

Judine

Amazing meditation!

Gela R

This is a powerful meditation that deeply resonates with my state of being. It feels good to be re-connecting with my Soul / divine self. I can feel the healing power and will continue to listen Thank you.

Joe

These Meditations are wonderful thank you

Sophia A

Hi Niki,

This meditation is powerful, I often feel sadness and cry when I’m listening…

Thanks a lot

Patrizia V

The self love meditation already helped me! With Realising That I do have an active inner critic!!! I always said to my OHC practitioner, Gemma, that I can’t hear my inner critic so the STOP process is not relevant For me and always used EFT for emotions but now I can see that when I’m upset by people -(the words used or actions then get translated) and my inner critic uses this and keep upsetting me!  and no matter how much EFT I have done it hasn’t cleared in a year. Now I know why!!

THANK YOU for your meditation for this realisation!!

All the best,

Anett

Niki–I am so grateful for the valuable information and guided meditations you have gifted us.  Thank you, thank you.  Many blessings to you and all you hold dear.

Martha

You are the best!  So many thanks for the enormous contribution you have made to my life. I so appreciate your wisdom, your heart and soul, and your voice and guided  meditations that are the first that have ever resonated with me…..and I needed them dearly.  I will try to listen to the two you have offered here,  every day for several months.  Will you put new ones on your website as you create them?  I will keep checking…..

Thanks for your response.

Warmly,

Abbie C

Loved your meditations and am doing the self love one daily already this last week…it brought out a huge emotional release which let me know how powerful they are. Now I believe I am experiencing physical detox symptoms that you describe in your last video..??

Denise S

Niki,  MANY, MANY THANKS FOR THIS MUSIC AND YOUR GREAT MEDITATION.  MUCH APPRECIATED, Anita G

And thanks a lot for meditations. I’ve been into meditation for many years and your meditations really surprised me with their depth and effectiveness.

Thank you so much. And I’m really amazed how timely your info reached me.

warm regards,

Arifa J

thank you for being a beacon of hope for everyone who is searching for their second chance at optimal health and wellness.  I truly appreciate your passion and commitment. With gratitude,

Sina

I have been following your work for quite a while now and am learning so much

and am very moved indeed.

Michael T

A few months ago I downloaded the selfcare meditation, listen to it very evening for a month and half and stopped. After the second masterclass I start listening again. Just this week one morning I had the feeling , I am safe. I never before realize that I was always feeling unsafe, I like to keep people at an arm’s lenght distance.

Just this week I realize what was the underlying reason.

At age 14/15 there some inappropriate touching by some one close to me. I trusted him.

It changed my whole world and thinking.

You can’t imaging how wonderfull I feel. But thank very much., I have no idea how sound works but it helped me

Kindest regards

Irene T

I particularly appreciate the meditations,  as an old sound technician (“professional damage”) with sound quality control experience, that your voice is superb, the music beautiful, the brain entrainment beats great. Very best wishes and kind regards,

Maria

Your two meditations are amazing, I do both every day and I am putting everything I have learned so far into practice.  I watch all your webinars and take copious notes.  The info has helped me a lot and I very much look forward to learning more.  Thank you once again, your hard work and passion on behalf of helping others is very much appreciated.  The light in me sees the light in you.  

Emma.

Thanks for this.  I feel safer stronger wiser lighter and more protected.

I found it very insightful and healing and look forward to listening to it again and again.

Meera 

I cried hard throughout the second half of this meditation. Felt overwhelmed at how hard I’d pushed myself for 52 years. And how ill I’ve become. I hope I can continue to listen to this every day and hopefully learn to love myself.

Thanks Very much for this.

Sundial

I am a yoga and meditation teacher and have a history of developmental trauma and recent events have amped up the fatigue, body aches and low mood. I did this meditation for the first time today and it was a beautiful, anchoring tool. Thank you. I felt refreshed and re-connected back to myself more than I have in a long time.

Saya

“I am nearly 80 and have been searching for the road home for many years.  This recording has brought me hope and touched me deeply. Thank you.“

Lusa

“Good morning Nikki, Thank you for your self love download and for how to deal with Emotional detox, I have listened to self love 6 times and this morning it left me in tears and needing a hug (which are not allowed right now – covid).“

Ann

“Just wanted to say deep gratitude for self love meditation. Already helped me a lot.  Just coming out of horrendous terrifying episode of complex trauma due to deep abuse all my childhood from birth onwards in all ways.  Feel a difference after listening to it only twice.“

Veronica

I slept so well after listening to this meditation before bed! You have such a lovely voice Niki

Lucie

Really enjoyed this meditation and will listen every day.  Brought to mind past experiences which I think have affected my whole life and I am  now 68 and struggling with cfs/fibromyalgia……

Look forward to further information and help.

Veronica

Just wanted to say deep gratitude for self love meditation. Already helped me a lot.  Just coming out of horrendous terrifying episode of complex trauma due to deep abuse all my childhood from birth onwards in all ways.  Feel a difference after listening to it only twice

Ann

Good morning Nikki, Thank you for your self love download and for how to deal with Emotional detox, I have listened to self love 6 times and this morning it left me in tears and needing a hug (which are not allowed right now -covid).

I love the meditation. It draws me to it effortlessly. Thank you Nikki. You are 

Ruby  

So, this is what I experienced:

Strong activation of my heart chakra – I feel a huge amount of pressure in the chakra area.  Then, I had this weird sensation of tingling that started in my toes and went right up through my body.  That was followed by really strong pains in my heart (like I was trying to release something) and then tears.  Woke up in the middle of the night with massive itching (always a sign for me of detoxification) and had to take 2 lots of liver supplements to take it down.  Was awake most of the night.  When I woke up this morning, I was exhausted and felt like I had been on the drink all night.  Needed coffee all morning just to keep me going.  And then it came to me what I had released…………….guilt and shame.  Clearly a lot of it!!

Jan C

I’ve started doing your meditations twice a day as you suggested….and yes the effects do seem cumulative even in that short time.

Came out in spots on my face yesterday (and I rarely get spots), their location of which appears to correlate with the detox organs on the facial reflexology map. Last night’s self-love meditation was super-powerful and activated first my heart chakra, then my throat chakra then my solar plexus and sacral chakras.  And then all I could taste was salt again.  Today, there is some stuck energy in my throat and chest – feels like something that I need to get off my chest.  On my run this morning, it was clear to me that I was releasing rejection fears.  That was the first day that I did them both.

At this rate, I should be fully healed by the end of the month, haha!

Jan C

I was doing the Field Grounding Meditation today, my mother popped in to speak (that’s a first).  I had to tell her to wait until I’d finished the meditation before I would speak to her.  Is that what it’s going to be like?

About 2 weeks before Christmas, my family and I were at a “St Nick Fun Run”.

This is where we as a community all gathered at a local school to run a race (No racing for me. I walked a short bit ;)!, and raise money for children who need tuition assistance for school.

While we were all standing around waiting for the “race” to begin, I was talking to several people. As I was listening to the conversation—- out of nowhere— I instantly felt connected to everything and everyone. It was as if people were talking, but I didn’t hear all the details of their words. I just felt great LOVE for everyone and everything- and that we were all connected. I felt compelled to pray over everyone there and send out blessings.  All my senses were heightened as I felt a high vibration of sorts, and time stood still in this very spiritual moment.

And then, after a few seconds, it was over. It was very quick. And then I was simply back to talking to everyone and meeting families and their children.

Maybe this is the “soul connection“ Niki talks about in her meditations?

Courtney

Thank you so much for sending me this precious meditation link to me. I did my meditation today with your calming and gentle and truly loved it. It came on a day, I felt sad when I woke up as it was raining and gloomy, and I had to put jacket again on after a nice long summer!

I love the variety of music you chose! I specially enjoyed very much when you were talking about gratitude and healing different parts of our body. I just couldn’t stop my tears coming down, don’t know why!!

Nira

I love the meditation!

Tarin

Also after and during the field clearance meditation I had a dry cough like I had something to get out of me, at the same time felt pains in my abdomen like I needed to birth something or push something out of me. I don’t think it’s out yet, but it’s been loosened….

Janine

Thank you Niki 

I truly believe in what you are saying as last March, I felt an overwhelming amount of love flow through my body as I was Meditating and I felt I had let go of something and my Body is getting stronger as the days go by 

I now use your Guided Meditation everyday to further my Healing. I am grateful and indebted to you for your guided Meditation 

Dave

Very powerful meditation. I appreciate the extra 10 min of just music

Gratiano

Excellent, I love- love- love this meditation!!!

Thank you so much – Dee

I have been following your work for quite a while now and am learning so much

and am very moved indeed.

Michael T

“Really enjoyed this meditation and will listen every day.  Brought to mind past experiences which I think have affected my whole life and I am  now 68 and struggling with cfs/fibromyalgia……Look forward to further information and help..“

Wendy

I have discovered that my whole life has been devoted to removing the blocks to the truth of mySelf.  Thank you for your good work and the meditation as it is supporting me, past, present, future through this time of uncertainty.  I am safe.  I am Beloved.  I am Blessed.  I am Whole.  May all beings realize likewise in this time of transcendence.

Mary 

I just wish to say thank you to you Niki for so generously sharing your meditations to help people to grow out of their traumatic neural states.

Wendy

Good morning Nikki, Thank you for your self love download and for how to deal with Emotional detox, I have listened to self love 6 times and this morning it left me in tears and needing a hug.

That was incredible. That was the very first time I felt deeply connected to my soul. I balled my eyes out, it was really powerful. Thank you

Andrew

What a transcendent meditation. I just finished the meditation and cannot describe the peace that I feel. Every cell in my body felt alive. I have never experienced anything like this. I have been practicing Buddhism for over 10 years and never had an experience like this. My soul connected to every part of my being with this radiant white light. Thank you so much.

Patricia

I was doing the Field Grounding Meditation today, my mother popped in to speak (that’s a first).  I had to tell her to wait until I’d finished the meditation before I would speak to her.  Is that what it’s going to be like?

I am loving getting in touch with so much depth in my body, mind & soul. This meditation was very deep for me. I feel very heavy (it’s late here in New Zealand) Looking forward to a cleansing sleep.

I can feel a dramatic shift already & I’ve only been working through the first level for three days.

Will be interesting where I end up

Julie S

I’ve been listening to one of your meditations the last few weeks, and have rather surprised myself at how I’ve been drawn to it! I only listened to maybe 30 seconds of it, but it made me feel very peculiar. It felt like it affected my heart rhythm, and I felt really quite unwell for a while afterwards, and had a rough night. I had the same reaction to one of the youtube healing music links when I tried that out recently, so I’m guessing it’s the same sound?

It’s clearly very powerful!! I just wonder if it’s too powerful for me right now? Or if there are certain frequencies that aren’t suited to some people? Or if I should try 30 seconds every now and then, when I can pluck up the courage?! What do you think?

Kate

I like all 3 of your meditations. They are powerfull their own way. I choose to do one of them nearly every day.

When I did the Field Clearance one the first few times I felt more pain was going through my body especially my legs. Now I feel that some of my stuck emotions started to release.

I have 2 horses and I sometimes like to just be around them. So I thought I could do the meditations in the field where they are.

I lie down in the field surrounded by trees, just me and my horses (Who are usually eating grass) and nobody else. After few times it seems that they join me in my meditating now. Standing close to me with their heads down looking relaxed.

Your meditations are very powerfull. What it does to my emotions and energy my horses can sense it. It would not surprise me if they were releasing some of their stuck emotions too

Thank you very much for all your work

Kind regards

Sandra

Beautiful I feel like I’m smiling all over im in gratitude

Tracey

J’adore la field clearance méditation..je l’ai faite déjà plusieurs x, et cela m’avait fait bcp de bien.

Bon week-end.

Ria

Thank you so much for these meditations it’s very interesting I believe this can help a lot of people around the world I love it

Amadou

 I am a clinical psychologist. I am trained in EFT and Matrix and work with a lot of clients with health conditions. As I mentioned I have been recommending the self love meditation to some of my clients who are open and who I feel might benefit I have had good feedback so far and feel like it helps us traverse the resistance of the conscious mind and gets them back into their bodies and emotions and helps our work together when they can do it regularly. On a strange aside here, I have been doing the self love myself each evening when i go to bed, mostly i fall asleep with it on. I am noticing more frustration, resentment and rage come up during the day which i am mindful of (and try not to intellectualise –my main defense mech). I also had a strange experience sunday morning when having a lie in but i just thought about popping in the field clearing meditation and then i got a strong vibration in my solar plexus, it was like i had a vibrator in there, it was so strong and it gave me a big shock. I took it as a good sign and i am really looking forward to receiving my sonic slider and crystal as i am excited to see what happens there when i do the sound therapy.

Michele S

Thank you. I love the meditation. I cried during the first time. Am feeling very nourished after listening.

Karen Mann

Thanks very much for this meditation, Nicki, it was excellent and very moving.

Linda L

Thank you so very much for this guided meditation.  I was actually in the middle of an AFIB bout and it stopped within the 30 minutes of the meditation.  You are a Godsend…..

Lori

I have listened to the Self-love Meditation for the last three nights and love the way it relaxes me and gets me ready for sleep (not to mention the psychological benefits)

Kristin

Your email was perfectly on time…WOW! Dealing with emotional detox was magnificent. The meditations have been very healing. I have committed daily to get still and absorb the healing. I am very greatful for your guidance and support in this endeavor.  You are indeed a blessing in my life.

Greatfully,

Debbie K

Nira ter Veld

Functional Health Coach and Medical Intuitive

Hi Niki, I have been a member of this portal since the very beginning. I still suffer from a lot of issues but my Bronchiectasis has cleared up immensely since I started doing all these meditations.

My healing since joining you September 2020 has been a miracle

I have been waiting to see if this change is real or not – I believe the arthritis in my feet is healing. In the past I have experienced lots of pain in my neck, lower back, shoulders, hands, right thumb, hips, knee and most excruciatingly in my feet. My feet will ache, they will burn and there was considerable swelling in the joints on the tops of my feet. Some days, I was almost crippled. Niki told me a couple of years ago that energetically the arthritis has healed and as we know the physical body takes time to catch up. About 3 weeks ago I had a particularly difficult bout of pain and then the next day, it was gone. I have had twinges of pain since then but nothing near to what it was. It is my hope that it is clearing out. And now that I think of it, the pain in my thumb has subsided as well.

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I have some good health news to share. I have been able to reduce the strength of my thyroxine medication; one of the medications I take for a thyroid disorder. With my endocrinologists approval, I am now taking 50% less than I was 6 months ago. Down to 50mcg daily now.  I still need to take T3 alongside it, due to a DIO1 and 2 gene mutation from both parents, but this reduction of Thyroxine means my body is starting to function better and I’m turning a corner with this particular health condition. Because the debilitating fatigue from hypo and hyper thyroid can feel so similar, it’s wise to get tested regularly and self monitor in case you start needing less thyroxine. This change coincides with clearing my Karma, cPTSD, completing commands/healing emotions in April.  I have used private home test kits plus a free doctor test to get confirmation of needing to alter my dosage. I’ve only been taking 50mcg for 12 days but already my energy is improving and for the hundreth time I’m feeling so grateful to my wonderful open-minded Endo, who doesn’t bat an eye lid if I mention gene mutations, ingredient sensitivities in various brands or some of the less well known thyroid symptoms. Thank you Source for this healing and bringing this supportive practitioner into my life many years ago.

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I’m on my way to healing,,,another healing miracle…This week I returned to my retina specialist after the month before when I was surprised that my left eye was bleeding creating wet macular degeneration. “Who are.you?’ He asked me that question for the 3rd time…”I’m from another planet” I said and am a spiritual being to which his candidly said, “I believe you!” Because not only has your eye stopped bleeding it also reverted to dry Macular Degeneration! And your right eye is improving as well. What was I pretending not to see? With Source, forgiveness, upping my vibes daily, self-love, worthiness and patience I’m on my way to full recovery.  Thank you ALL we are ONE In deepest gratitude! 

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P.S. By the way, I am now down 19.3 kg!! Friggen MIRACLE!!  I had to find my own way to do it though, the counting calories was making me food obsessed and miserable.  But I would absolutely not have been able to loose this much weight if it weren’t for this Ascension work!!  Thank you so much for being our Ascension guide and making this work available to all of us!!  I couldn’t even start a diet 3 months ago, I was that fatigued of “dieting”!  Now I’ve almost lost 20kg!! TWENTY KG!!!

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Since joining the pre-portal in 2020, I’ve experienced significant improvements in my lifelong sleep disruptions, and 10+ years of cortisol receptor issues have (almost?) healed, which feels like a miracle given how helpless they made me feel for so long. Learning about the 5 types of trauma; “past life bleed-through;” seals tags headbands, implants and breeding programs; dimensions and ETs; the 4 beliefs about Source; and the various types of beliefs and forms of resistance etc. has also widened my perspective so much — and helped me make sense of some core life experiences in meaningful new ways — that it’s actually difficult now to recall how it felt to not know about them. Thank you for your time, energy and wisdom — and the continual, mind-boggling effort you put into creating this portal and answering everyone’s questions. A sincere heartfelt thank you Niki, and to all your team, for the wonderful and tireless work you all do.

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I am still working through some physical stuff: mycotoxins and glyphosate in my body but feel like I turned a positive corner a week ago, initially first with  being able me to fully breathe properly, the first time post getting covid which was amazing. More remarkably is so many of my symptoms are abating – energy is returning and I feel like I am “back in my body”, I also am not experiencing post exercise malaise which is new to me as I have been crashing energetically a lot when I have tried to re start exercise (I have a mild form of CFS/ME). Curiously relationships are also improving, both at work and in my family of origin. Esp. in my family it seems like things that were never spoken about, are now starting to be spoken about, and my sister is now open to receive and hear what I say, which is a revelation. I have also bought a Therasage sauna as I believe heavy metals are also a load that needs removing from my body (was in my original E Detox report).  Thanks.

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As we hit the end of the year, I’ve been reflecting on healing over the past 12 months. For me this has been a gradual shift. I haven’t really experienced quantum leaps, but I do feel different. I no longer identify as having CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). People around me have noticed improvement there. Mostly, I just feel different emotionally. Less reactive and more peaceful and placid. Again, there are times when stuff is clearing through and I’m aware of the impact of that…recently, a lot of depression, for example. But it is shifting. I have a slightly weird symptom change that I can document more firmly. And apologies, this is a bit icky… For the past 8 years or so, I’ve had a sebaceous cyst on my lower back. I haven’t been able to see it, just feel the lump as it has grown. My doctor tried removing it, but it came back. I’ve had a couple of other treatments on it, which temporarily reduced the lump, before it returned. So, I just ignored it…it’s not “dangerous” in any way and I was only aware of it if I ran my hand over my back. Anyway, about 4 weeks ago, I’d just done a yoga class with Doris, and I experienced some discomfort in my spinal area around my lower back (not unusual for me – part of my spine curvature is in that area). This was fairly close to the site of the cyst. I decided to have an Epsom Salts bath and, as I was getting out of the bath, the cyst just fell off…literally! That was it, gone! And it hasn’t come back. It feels like it was a symptom of something I was holding in my energy field, that has now cleared out…at least, that’s how I see it. So, not ground-breaking like regaining eyesight or some of the other miracles that have been shared in here. But a positive shift nonetheless. I’m grateful and excited to see what else will shift in 2024! Thank you Niki and the coaching team for all your amazing support and guidance these past 12 months. Wishing you all a Happy New Year!

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As I reflect on the last year, so many blessing have arisen with my ascension work.  I went to my doctor for bloodwork and a complete physical.  My doctor said what are you doing?  I told him some of the things, along with lots of meditation.  He said, “Whatever you are doing, keep it up.  I have no concerns with you.”  As I review my bloodwork, the hypothyroidism I had is no longer an issue, I no longer have osteoporosis and have been off any bone support supplements for many, many months now.  I still have some pain in one hip and a little tenderness in low back, but compared to what it used to be, I am so grateful for the changes.  I feel some of this is related to relationships in my life.  I asked Source to magnify what I need to work on and, or course, I went through a bit of a turbulent time two days after the Relationships Healing Ceremony. I also have been able to set much stronger boundaries around my son, which were greatly needed.  I am also feeling some relationships are organically just falling away by both parties.  Since being in the divine pendulum testing group from the beginning, I am now seeing my accuracy improve.  Last week after the testing, I retested a few questions once off the call and changed one answer and got 100%.  I feel unbelievably appreciative for the coaching from Niki, the guidance from Annie, and to learn from what we are testing.  I have noticed myself gaining more accuracy, and at the same time not so invested in my accuracy as I have noticed that my accuracy will still be up and down, especially when my mood is a little low, but my communication with Source is always growing and I am using my pendulum to also grow my relationship with Source.  When I have a thought and ask Source about it personally, I sometimes get an electrifying experience through my whole body.  Forever grateful to the friendships in this group, and on to 2024 with more growth, clarity and discernment.  Happy holidays everyone with  love, light, and well-being to you all.

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When I asked my chiropractor if she thought my left foot would ever regain complete feeling from the two pinched nerves and lumbar vertebrae hyper-mobility, she said, “Normally I’d say ‘No’ but rules don’t seem to apply to you. When we first started, I never thought you’d even get this far!”  On another occasion she had also said, “Wow – look at you walking upright just like a regular person!” To date I have now regained about 90% of the feeling and strength in my left foot, the hyper-mobility in my lumbar spine has stabilized, and am mostly able to walk like a “regular person” again…all this along with so many other positive life changes and awareness! Truly blessed

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I discovered the Portal July 21 at the very moment I was diagnosed with a rare stage 3 cancerous growth in the crook of my collarbones.. Drastic surgery removed part of my sternum, clavicles my (healthy) thyroid and parathyroids. I could only whisper my commands for 10 minutes at a time for months. However I fully recovered, without chemo or radiation and am healthy. The surgery and joining the Portal were a life changing time: I’ve been the happiest I’ve been in my life, I feel I live in the present moment, have let go of drama and over empathizing, I’ve stepped away from a couple of narcissistic friendships, I feel like I’ve let go of my traumatic childhood.. My relationship with my husband has improved (47 years married).

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Got off all sleep meds I have been on for 30 years. Happy to share that I have gotten off all sleeping meds after taking them for 30 years. Woo hoo, yea  Ascension and yea Quantum Healing. I tried a  year ago and then a few months ago as I figured Andrew got of meds so maybe I could as well. It did not work at all. I so wish doctors would learn this instead of putting people on sleeping meds. What a concept to be able to fall asleep before 3 am..

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You asked me to explain more about my amazing appointment to my Retina doctor. We moved in June 2023 and I had to select a new retina doctor from our group in my new location. My vision has changed twice for the better since January 2023. Recently I have been using old sun glasses from 10 years ago.  Normally it is required to receive an injection as needed every 4 to 6 weeks. I have not had any injections since October 2022. He welcomed me and exclaimed “Who are you?” And I chuckled and asked Why? He answered that in 34 years in practice he has never had anyone reverse their Macular Degeneration.  I see him again on December 13. I tell everyone on the zoom and morning meditation groups -lots of positivity-be patient-let go-and raise your vibration -not necessarily in that order!

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I love participating in the 2 hour meditations that Annie started, with us, since October, 2022. It has been life changing, especially now. There’s been more peace and acceptance of the process, than ever before, because of the meditations!  I’m being the real me! I was diagnosed with MS eight years ago. I take no medication and no supplements since being in the Portal from 2/23/2021. My only symptoms are of leg muscle fatigue when getting physical (such as walking 15-20 minutes, mowing the grass for 15-20 minutes). Thank you for showing us what Love, Light, and Truth is all about. Your dedication to all of us is priceless

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I have been waiting to see if this change is real or not – I believe the arthritis in my feet is healing. In the past I have experienced lots of pain in my neck, lower back, shoulders, hands, right thumb, hips, knee and most excruciatingly in my feet. My feet will ache, they will burn and there was considerable swelling in the joints on the tops of my feet. Some days, I was almost crippled. Niki told me a couple of years ago that energetically the arthritis has healed and as we know the physical body takes time to catch up. About 3 weeks ago I had a particularly difficult bout of pain and then the next day, it was gone. I have had twinges of pain since then but nothing near to what it was. It is my hope that it is clearing out. And now that I think of it, the pain in my thumb has subsided as well.

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While my rheumatoid arthritis is well controlled on big immune suppression, i keep hoping to get off it.  i had an appt just a few weeks ago where my Dr announced, as she finished the ‘joint count’ (the assessment of involved joints) that i had ZERO.  She said she has never had this happen before in her practice, and while i am still fully Bcell suppressed so time will tell where i really am, i am opening the door on the fact that THIS IS REAL. I won’t pretend every day is perfect but its a fact I’m not living in the same world as previous.  While some of the above could be considered lucky or cosmic alignment or whatever, the miracle baby is just that, a true miracle. Thanks for reading. Wishing you all a miracle of your own, it’s real, it will happen.

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I enrolled in and faithfully followed your recommendations, and cleared up about 80% of my physical symptoms. I joined your healing circles from the very beginning, and then the portal in July 2021, and I am happy to report that my anxiety has mostly cleared up, which is huge for me, since I had been anxious my whole life to a varying degree, and more recently anxiety had literally been ruining my life. I have also made significant (in fact, truly amazing!) progress in recovering from childhood trauma: I am now much more confident, my boundaries have improved considerably, and I have a much better sense of who I am and what I want to do with my life than ever before. Due to my new confidence and calm focus, even my career is picking up, against all the odds (I’m in a generally unforgiving profession). However, I’m also sad, since I now realize that I chose my demanding career to please my abusive, impossible mother, and I’m now much aware of lost opportunities, especially as I have found in the meantime my main passion in life which is very different from my profession, and I can now see that all my major life choices were driven by subconscious impulses due to my trauma, which led to my particular career path and also to not having had children – but I am emerging on the other side of grieving my lost “dream life” with a much better sense of self, more authenticity and optimism for the future than I ever thought were possible, and I’m able to, for the first time in my life, experience self-compassion, self-respect and even self-love! Although still dealing with occasional procrastination and scary thoughts about my health, I now have increasing clarity about what is good for me and how to take care of myself, concepts that were foreign to me well into my forties…

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I’ve been in this portal since Nikii started it. In didn’t  truly understand anything she was talking about except getting better and healing. I am 66 years old with many different things wrong with me. One of my latest problems has been Bronchiectasis. For a few years I have been seeing a pulmonologist for it. After I took my latest CT scan he was totally surprised. My doctor was absolutely shocked how good my scan was. I am almost cured of bronchiectasis. The radiologist who read the CT scan wanted to know which I pill or prescription did the doctor give me to get better. I told the doctor with a smile that I meditate every day to healing meditations. He was so happy at seeing these results. The doctor told me he’s never seen anything like this. I just hope this Bronchiectasis is gone for good.

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I work as a Biokinesiologist and see clients weekly in the last six months or so I have been drawn to do healing work on some clients using my hands and divine muscle testing along with pendulum testing. Out of the blue clients are coming to me for this healing through word of mouth.  When I meditate my hands get really hot and I have been shown images of my hands.

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I finally feel I have inner alignment with my losing all my excess weight! The war is finally over!! The war that has raged for decades inside of me, has finally come to a surprise ending with the last remaining strong holds for the “fat supremacy” surrendering their hold over my mind and body.  Yielding to one last kinesiology treatment, the resistance finally put their knives and forks down! I really do feel like I have been at war with myself for many decades about my weight issues and I was always on the losing side.  After trying every diet under the sun, I realised that I needed to heal the psychological issues that were driving my weight gain & making me want to be fat.  I tried many different therapists, & many modalities, to no avail. Year after year, I just got bigger and bigger and bigger.

Then Niki said that I don’t need to do any special diet, just count calories Even though I am so fatigued by dieting, & the thought of going on another diet just makes me want to die.  Counting calories, I couldn’t think of anything worse, & having to do it for so long.  Kill me now!  It’s too hard!  It never works!! I hate dieting!!  Yummy foods are the highlights of my day and the only thing that really gets me though.  They are my reward!  My comfort, my relaxation.  I can’t give them up!! 

So anyway, in a last-ditch effort to help with my weight on the weekend before starting diet 11 million and one, I do another kinesiology balance on myself.   Two days later I started my diet, and I was surprised, that I thought counting calories wasn’t such a bad idea after all, as it gives me a lot of freedom with what I can eat.  I was also surprised to not be feeling dread, to instead be feeling confident and like “you’ve got this, you can do this, it’s not that hard”.  You don’t have to starve yourself or go on a water fast, you can still eat yummy foods, just different yummy foods.  I was amazed by how I was feeling.  I think I’ve done it!! I think this is what 100% alignment with losing my excess weight and being slim feels like!!  OMG!!  I had all these feelings of joy and excitement come over me!!  Then I had the thought pop into my head, “it’s a gift!”.  And I knew that it was a gift from source!   I am so thrilled and beyond grateful to Source for this gift. And to Niki as well for creating the Ascension Portal and being a fabulous Ascension teacher, I wouldn’t have gotten to this point without you!  

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have just been for a contact lens check up. I’ve been aware for a while that my eyesight with my lenses and glasses has been deteriorating. However, what has happened is my right eye has improved by 3 points and my left eye by 2 points. The optician was obviously flabbergasted. He says this doesn’t really happen. And has no idea why it has for me. But we know don’t we!

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A few days after that I woke up with a feeling of enormous joy (this is soooo not my default state atm!) and a feeling of what I think is ‘completion’- like I’d gotten something huge off my plate and the relief of that, and then this incredible lightness of being. I think that was completing with the 12th, it felt like it to me anyway. And, I wasn’t going to post about this yet because I haven’t done enough “experimentation” to be rock-solid sure, but I’m thinking this is proof of integration with the 12th so I’m just gonna say it without fearing too much it will turn out not to be true… I’m pretty sure I’m able to tolerate alcohol again after 20 years of getting horribly sick after the tiniest amount. On two separate occasions recently I’ve had a whole shot of vodka and in the past that would have led to an immediate “hangover”- skip the being drunk phase just the most awful blinding headache, nausea, gut issues within minutes of the first sip. Alcohol was not a pleasure in the least! Recently I got what I guess was a nudge from my Source team and was pleasantly tipsy without any of that, and with minimal hangover the next day. This is the first real sense I’ve had of any physical healing and I feel it correlates with completing with the 12th so hope its appropriate to share here. I’m so happy to be here in the portal now! It’s been such a rough journey- so much detox on so many levels and a fair dose of cognitive dissonance along the way, but I feel like lately I’m beginning to see signs that its working… After 20 years of being ill- hoping, giving up hope, aching to hope again… Are we really going to heal and soon?? I can’t wait to hear about others’ progress too…

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All I can say is that this miracle was totally driven (or should I say ridden) by Source. I have not got on my bike now for a good couple of years, and even then it was only a ‘one off’. I used to love going on it pre 2020, and through the summer I would cycle several times a week. I have not wanted to get on it at all and more recently with all the pain I have had and also Carpal Tunnel in both hands, I was even considering selling my bike. Today, my partner said he was going out on a bike ride and I found myself saying ‘I’ll come’. I had no idea how it would go, but I wanted to try. I was a bit wobbly at first and my arms and hands were not brilliant but I managed. We cycled six miles and it was such an achievement and indeed a miracle

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Context: In 2008, i was off work for 3 months, on my back, with a slipped disc/bulge & left leg sciatica. Fast forward: Last Friday, i had an Osteo appt. and began to tell my Osteo what occurred for 3 days during a week of July 23. I woke up on the first morning and i could barely move, the pain in my lower back was unreal; and it was like a flashback to 15 yrs ago(note: the day b/f i had a calm, ordinary relaxing day…so no weird work- outs, over doing it, nothing).My mind immediately reacted ” omg, its happening again” Then ,i heard in my head ” Allow the Process” and ” Its Temporary”. I knew right then (not sure if Source or my Source Team sent the download), but i knew it was a Double Download Whamy!! I relaxed, took a breath & said to myself… it will be ok, its part of what i need to heal & release. On the 4th morning, when i woke up ,all the pain was gone, like nothing ever happened. After hearing this story, my Osteo began her usual pre-test check on my spine/back muscles; she was very surprised and expected more restrictions & tightness, but to her surprise there was more movement, flow & less ‘resistance’ …no kidding she actually said ‘less resistance’. Wowza, when i heard that, my thoughts immediately jumped to our HCs ,Niki’s insights & guidance, our meditations & removing/clearing our resistances. This entire experience was a pivotal, huge & glaring reveal for me, esp. that inner understanding/knowing now of ” Allow the Process”. As we/i navigate through ascension (with Niki’s guidance), i see now that i HAD to go through this again to release some pretty deep stuff. What A Divine Gift From Source

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A little update that I shared in last week’s zoom call which I hope is encouraging, especially for those of you who are struggling. I’ve had some physical improvements. I was a little reluctant to stop taking supplements when Niki shared we no longer needed them, particularly vitamin D as it is so important for immune function (my immune function is less than optimal). I did stop taking it, I am pleased to say that I had my vitamin D levels checked and am doing great! With an optimal reference range of 75-200 nmol/L, mine is 146! I also had my annual eye exam. My eye doctor told me that I had 20/20 vision with my glasses on for the first time ever! What?!!! Not only that, when I was 16, I was moving a car jack in the back of my hatchback and had secured the hatchback with a bungee cord; without realizing it, I somehow released the bungee cord and it sprung back quickly into my left eye before I had any chance to react. I ended up having to be in the hospital for 5 days on my back with my eyes covered (to prevent retina detachment), not even allowed to get up to use the toilet, shower or eat. My vision recovered, but several years later I noticed while doing microscope work that when setting up the microscope I saw different colours with each of my eyes. I don’t do microscope work anymore and if I look through one eye only, I still see different colours, but the area in my eye that was damaged from the accident has almost completely disappeared/healed!!! What?!!! My eye doctor asked what I was doing differently and I simply replied some spiritual work. He said to keep doing whatever that was because it’s working!!  Don’t I know it! I’ll be curious to see what else has changed when I have my next annual eye exam.  We are healing even when it seems like nothing is happening. Yay! 

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I’ve been actively participating in the portal since July 2021 and have noticed a steady increase in my wellbeing – physically, mentally, emotionally & spiritually. I joined the portal to heal from Rheumatoid Arthritis (diagnosed by traditional GP) and Lyme’s, as the opening for RA, diagnosed by The Sophia Institute, following Dr. Klinghardt’s methodology, although I didn’t work with him directly.  I am currently meditating with portal meditations an hour a day, sleeping 9 hours, most nights, eating well and doing small amounts of exercise (my weakest part of healing).  After loosing almost 50 pounds, I’m back to my normal weight of 120 – used to weigh 99 pounds and am 5 ft, 8inches. My pain used to be at 7 & 8 and is now at 2 & 3 and my energy levels used to be 2 & 3s and are now mostly at 8. YAY!! Lots to celebrate

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Since finding you in autumn 2019, I’ve had some impressive physical healing (tinnitus and digestive) and unexpected emotional healing as I can now accept the inadequacies of my blood family and interact with them, in a measured way, without getting triggered. An amazing result which I wholeheartedly put down to being a member of this portal. Thank you 

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I had an amazing thing happen but I don’t know if I can really convey how profound it was. A few days ago I was making a tea in the evening and I thought ‘I can’t wait for tomorrow.’ And the feeling was just a pure exuberance for the idea of waking up and living a day. I had nothing special planed. In fact, I have CFS so my days consists of a dog walk and lots of time in bed and can get quite samey.  My life hasn’t been dull or boring by a long stretch but, due to battling with one thing or another along with CFS for a long time, I don’t think I’ve been excited to live for at least 15 years, possibly never quite to the degree I felt it at that point. I’ve been excited because I’ve got an event happening, or excited because I didn’t have to go work the next day and I could lie in bed (probably more relieved) but this was just pure joy at the idea of being able to get up and carry on experiencing being. It felt wonderful. I haven’t felt it since and am still having ups and downs as I work through the layers. But I’ve definitely noticed more energy lately, more joy in my projects, less reactivity to other people or when things don’t go my way and being happier overall. I have this feeling though that perhaps this was a sneak preview of what it will feel like at some point all the time. Just loving being alive. I can’t wait!!

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Hi everyone. I just wanted to post an update. I had my gratitude and beliefs session with Christine last month, which was great and she confirmed I was a one laner, but I’m not now. I’m activated to 14th and integrated to 13th. I’ve been sick for about 15 years starting very mildly and very slowly progressing. I hit my worst about 3 years ago and I would spend up to 4 hours a day completely paralysed, unable to speak or move at all and in constant incredible pain. I would have to crawl on my hands and knees, when I could, to get to the bathroom because I couldn’t stand up. Of course this would go up and down, sometimes I was better. Now these things are totally in the past. Any pain I get is mild and transient, most of the time I have no pain. I don’t need sleep during the day mostly now. I am even starting to think about how I can work towards earning an income again- slowly and not straight away, but the thoughts are there. I realise my CFS was not as severe as some peoples here, some have much more complex illness and more challenging personal histories than myself. Still, I find it incredible to have come such a long way in a relatively short time. A testament to the work we are doing, I’m sure. Incredibly grateful to Niki and everyone for being on this journey together.

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Hello everyone, over several weeks I’ve noticed that I’ve been having a physical shift. At first I was reluctant to share as perhaps it was simply a passing thing. But nope! I have been doing intentions with and shared that I’ve been on glucocorticosteroids since 1981, varying levels, and one negative side effect is that I have sloppy joints, most notably in my neck and spine. I am currently weaning off of them (a slow, somewhat painful process), but am down to 1.6 mg/day (without secondary negative consequences like I experienced before when weaning off), a huge accomplishment. Also, it’s interesting that the spine supports our bodies so the connection of spinal malalignment is not lost on me in the lack of external support I’ve experienced, but more importantly my own lack of support for myself!  Anyway, I have been having weekly manipulations to have my neck and spine realigned for so long I cannot recall when I haven’t had them. Last week I didn’t need an adjustment, only some stretching. What?!!! AND, my neck is still moving freely.
All of my hard work, the investment of time and commitment to the ascension process is paying off. I honestly wondered if I’d ever see these sorts of improvements and now I am. As Jeff Deppe always reminds us to “not leave before your miracle happens”, this truly is a significant, tangible, miracle for me. It’s all happening (of course it has been all along but in ways I haven’t been able to see or notice)!  So, I thank you Niki and all of you for being on this journey with me. I’m looking forward to more shifts and sharing about them. Lots of love 

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I have been a member of your portal since September 2021 and have seen incredible results since. I realize there may be people that are still having trouble, but I want to let you know, I have healed many persistent health issues (CFS, long C, edema, low immunity/Lyme, etc.) since joining the portal. I wanted to touch briefly on the Akashic Records. I have worked in the Records since I was a little girl. My grandmother (who couldn’t read or write) could access the Records in her dreams and was a well-known psychic in my country (Albania). She taught me how to access the records in a sleep state and I have done so for all decisions big and small in my life. Through Linda Howe I learned to access the records in the awake state and have worked almost daily in them since 2017 (for myself and family/friends – I have a corporate day job :). Joining your portal put the Records work on steroids. Awareness of the dark and the way it interferes with human life has helped me uncover and clear so much sabotage and illness that have persisted for many lifetimes, and not just for me, but humanity as a whole. I am so happy you are addressing the Records in your Saturday ceremonies. I want to thank you for the amazing work you’re doing and the incredible soul growth that you are facilitating for me, and I am sure countless others. 

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Here’s a few little things I’ve seen: This week I got my eyes checked and my vision has improved significantly in both eyes.  Also, a few weeks ago I had a weird issue of a blob of overgrown tissue in my eye and the doctor said that she only usually sees this in young people (I’m almost 58), and that it was from a very robust immune system. I also went for acupuncture a month or two ago for a physical issue. In the past, I used to get a lot of acupuncture and my pulses were always very faint and depleted. This time the acupuncturist told me that my pulses were above average strong and vibrant. I also notice that I’m much less stressed in general from when I first joined the Portal in July of last year and have notably less aches and pains too. I’m starting to trust more in the process rather than expecting the quick fix. At this point, my focus is to be engaged, dedicated and steadfast in the healing work, the limiting beliefs work, and the meditation work. and to keep learning and growing.  I can see that I’m on the edge of not only digesting the concept of the profound reality of the path that we are on, but I can actually catch a glimpse of the possibility of actually feeling excited about it.  That is a huge step for me. Thank you Niki. And thank you to everyone for all that you share in the forum and the weekly Zoom group.

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I know that I told everyone before that my seasick has gone away since working with the Portal and Niki and all of you. But I just have to say it again, I have had motion sickness for over 50 years and it has stopped me doing things I want to do and now I feel nothing!!!! No sea sickness, no motion sickness ever and I have been testing it constantly!! There are so many more things that are healing in my body and in my soul as well, but this one is just so exciting to me!

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I’ve been with the group since July 2021, and I have experienced lots of physical healing…. leaky gut, IBS, Improved liver function, sun sensitivity, eczema) all pretty much healed which in of itself is miraculous and I’m ever so grateful. 

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 Positive thing number one…after my share last week (post on gaslighting), something shifted the following day, during meditation. I’m not sure what I released, but it must have been a pretty big blockage as I felt an uplift at the time, and I’m happy to report that hasn’t disappeared. It’s mostly on an emotional level…more ability to sense joy, less heaviness…and although it’s reasonably subtle, it is most definitely there…Positive thing number two…when I had my session with Nira, she predicted that I would start to feel some improvement about five weeks from then. Well, guess what? Last week was five weeks after the appointment…so big thank you to Nira for your wonderful gifts and support…and to anyone else reading this, who has had predictions of when healing may occur, I hope this brings you more faith, if you should need it! Positive thing number three…Last weekend, I went into London to the theatre for the second time since the whole pandemic thing. I should just mention that, prior to the pandemic kicking off, I was just starting to come out of a CFS/ME crash, so was beginning to go out socially, but still really struggling with that. So, in reality, for me, a trip into London has been a huge challenge since 2016. Well, last Saturday was an incredible improvement…I didn’t simply ‘survive’, I thrived. My Mum is my normal companion for theatre trips, and she has grown used to me crashing (through CFS/ME) and become ultra-sensitive to spotting signs of when my energy is starting to fail. She commented that she found the day was far more relaxing because she never once had to think about whether I was about to crash. So, she noticed the difference. From my perspective, I went out, enjoyed the day, came home, and it was as if I’d done nothing more than usual….which might not sound much, but it actually pretty mind-blowing…I can’t remember the last time that happened. Normally, I would feel some degree of tiredness, but no, I came home, enjoyed healing circle, and still had energy left when I went to bed…amazing! Positive thing number 4…being able to recognise what is happening to me and recognise my power to heal that.

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Earlier this week, I went to get an eye exam and new glasses. I usually do this every two years. For a while now I’ve felt that my vision has gotten a bit better. Amazingly, that was confirmed with my eye exam! Compared to my results from two years ago, my nearsightedness improved by 0.25 in each of my eyes. This is AMAZING!! My astigmatism in my right eye is 0.50 worse than last time, but my left eye stayed the same. The placement of my astigmatism changed drastically, however it is now roughly in the same spot on both eyes (5 degree/point difference compared to the old 12 degree/point difference). It’s really cool to have tangible proof that my eyesight overall has gotten better, especially since my eyes have always gotten progressively worse since I was a little kid

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I come from a background of strong inherited psychic spiritual faculty and capacity as my mother is Irish Gypsy (Pavees). My father was a doctor and ahead of his time giving me skills in muscle testing and radionics (among other things) from a very young age. I grew up on outback property in Australia with an active E.T presence, largely but not soley negative, that was “normal” to me.  I was educated in Medicine, Osteopathy and Kinesiology on top of my own innate ability’s and memories and being trauma and personal development informed. Despite said ability I was absolutely hammered. Inside and out, constant and ongoing life threatening “wars”. I joined the portal on the 2/11/21 on the recommendation of a patient. Below are some tangible personal experiences of mine hence. On the 11/11/21 in the space of 5 hours without prompting I settled my financial agreement from a separation that was due to go to court with a long, nasty, personally threatening trajectory that may not have given me any positive outcome at all.  In 2001, I had a compromised birth with my baby girl at the age of 24 and went on to contract an intracellular infection (think T.B) which caused ongoing pneumonia and encephalitis resulting in seizures, migraines and numerous stroke’s- I’ve been on restricted antibiotics both IV and oral for 8 years (which kept me alive and somewhat functional).  As of the last four months I’ve been antibiotic free and symptom free (largely). I think the above quantum changes in my life speak for themselves. With thanks,

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Niki, I no longer even recall how I found your Healing Circle and the Ascension Portal just over a year ago, and I am so grateful that I did! After fracturing my left wrist in 2018, I broke both of my legs in March 2019, and my left femur still has not fully healed. Until spring of 2021, I had no energy at all until I began using red light therapy and joined your Healing Circle.  I immediately noticed a reduction of the constant pain in my left knee (the site of the most severe fracture).  That has slowly improved over the past year, and still is not fully healed, but my energy has increased dramatically during that time!  For that, I am particularly grateful! The biggest change I have noticed in me during the past year is a decrease in my (internal) emotional reactivity.  I now rarely feel any reactivity to things that might have been quite upsetting in the past, and when I do, it is usually only a slight ripple that dissipates quickly. Recently, I have noticed that my intuition with my clients has been especially keen and accurate, and one client spontaneously observed that I appear to be aging in reverse!  Others have told me how calm they feel in my presence. Several acutely suicidal new clients stopped feeling suicidal right away, and became much more functional within only a week or two. My monkey-mind during meditations has calmed down significantly, and the ½ hour meditations now seem quite a bit shorter. Blessings of gratitude for the work you do, Niki, and blessings of success to us all!

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Hi Beautiful Ascension Family. I am skipping with excitement today because I have just returned from the opticians who informed me that I now have 20/20 vision!!!  I can now drive or read without glasses.  I have worn glasses full-time since I was 15, after I realised I was short-sighted when I wasn’t able to see the bus numbers. 20/20 – it is just amazing – can hardly believe it. I also felt a huge sense of euphoria after I had a clear out at home. I suddenly realised that I am no longer attached to all of my belongings! This seemed so big. I also realised that I have been keeping some things due to my ego – especially books.  All the books were there to boost my lack of self-worth – to show I was intelligent. I now realise it is wisdom I need.  As soon I removed the books I felt a rush of new energy, clear and exciting in the room and felt euphoric.  I still feel euphoric. Sending you all lots of love

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A few recent shifts that help me see my progress (which has been steady but sometimes subtle enough that I don’t see it as it’s happening).~ I went for my yearly eye exam, and rather than the usual bump up in my prescription, the doctor bumped it down an entire diopter for each eye. She also said I had “the healthiest eyelids she’s seen all week.” (how’s that for a memorable compliment?!). I’d been looking for a tangible manifestation of physical healing since other physical symptoms persist — here it is! ~ In the last couple weeks, details of my childhood trauma were revealed to me — maybe through a story I heard on the Saturday Zoom call? Or through a post in the forum? Whatever / whoever the source, I was drawn to a couple really good books on the topic of children of covert narcissistic mothers that helped me to fill in some critical missing pieces. ~ The last 2 of Niki’s meditations (divine feminine and sound bowls) have allowed me for the first time in my life to drop into complete peace and relaxation. Profound and blissful! ~ During today’s (sound bowl) meditation, I was presented with a new visualization — I was suspended above the earth, with a long grounding cord going down to the center of the planet, and white light from Source entering my head, radiating outward from my body, and pushing the remaining lower-frequency energy out of my body through the grounding cord. I could see I was connected to all the portal members in a network spanning the globe, with the result that we are projecting our combined energies into the universe to signal a new era. Grateful for all your support! 

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Last year I was very unwell physically with malnutrition and was on a liquid only diet. From scans my celiac artery is 50% compressed and I was diagnosed with Median arcuate ligament syndrome (2 cases in every 100,000 people) but commonly linked with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. Surgery is the only treatment the medical world recognise – but im now back eating a pretty normal diet and loads better! And also all the problems with peristeen bowel irrigation – im so much better from that perspective too and my GI issues  My doctors are totally amazed  On Sunday 3rd July I am going to do the 20km Jurassic coast Challenge – this time last year I’d lost 22% body weight in 6 months and my doctors wanted to admit me for a nato-jejunal feeding tube … I am SO glad I didn’t go down that route. Much acension love,

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All 6 different spinal diseases with which I have been diagnosed over the years have become a big nothing. I am pain free and can stand up straight. An old rotator cuff injury that has been an issue for over 40 years is starting to heal beautifully. The two pinched nerves in my low back are slowly resolving and feeling is starting to return to my left foot and calf muscle, which have been negatively affected. While in the process of going to sleep at night, I am aware of the sensations of being touched in various parts of my body and feeling a release come with it – physical tweaks to my system. While not really paying attention to anything in particular, memories of small interactions where my role was not particularly “Ascension worthy”, have come up with increasing frequency. This has allowed me to energetically ask the other person’s soul for forgiveness and to send them love. It feels resolved. This has also occurred in reverse where someone was less than kind to me and I have forgiven them and sent them love as well. By acknowledging and thanking Source for making me aware of these issues and immediately resolving them, they seem to be getting more frequent and specific! I am deeply grateful for the opportunity to make amends, and I feel lighter. I am curious whether the touch sensations are what is triggering these memories, as I know that such interactions do get trapped in our auric field. I do energy healing and have found that my conversations with clients are so exactly targeted to what they need to hear that it is starting to become uncanny. I have also found that the healings themselves are deeper and more profound. I have been much calmer and surrendered to what is. I find that my body sensations during the meditations are quite strong – alignment in the correct posture where my body connects heaven and earth lands in me with a profound awareness….something strongly energetic is occurring. There is a sense of groundedness while being very open to Source, and there is a distinct anchoring sensation in my body itself – what the energy healing school referred to as ‘being aligned in hara” – the dimension of intentionality  Overall i feel divinely guided and deeply grateful and am working toward losing all fear so i can continue to manifest many more positive things in the world.

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1.  I’ve had chronic diarrhea for 10 years and would say I am 80% healed so far and have even gained weight back. 2.   I no longer have any food sensitivities and am enjoying food I haven’t eaten for years. 3.   I am 100% healed from hypoglycaemia. 4.   My sleep has finally improved from 2 – 3 hrs per night to 5 – 6 hrs on most nights. 5.    My sore/achy left shoulder blade is 100% healed. 6.   The ganglion cysts I had on the bottom of both feet are approximately 90% gone. 7.   The foot and leg cramps I used to have every night during sleep are 90% healed. 8.   The chronic itching on my back from my first Shingles episode in 1985 (the largest & most painful) is 100% gone. 9.   The crows feet around my eyes are definitely diminishing. 10.  I am finally able to relax during meditations.11.  I won a Samsung Crystal UHD color TV from my accountants office.  I had forgotten I’d filled out a ballot so it was a wonderful surprise. 12.  I lost a white gold earring (a favourite pair) at the theatre.  Didn’t notice it gone until I was undressing for bed.  My husband drove back to the theatre with flashlight in hand and asked to be let into theatre number 6, row E, seats 1 & 2 to search for it and two young boys who were sweeping the floor found it, didn’t know what it was and were about to throw it in the garbage.  How lucky was I to get it back 13.  My mom was admitted to a  Alzheimer Care Facility 50 miles away in December and last week she was finally offered a room at a facility here in Lethbridge so I no longer have to drive 2 hours a day to go visit her. 14.  My mom’s condo, which has been for sale for 3 months, has finally been sold. The last 4 times all happened within 10 days.   I feel very blessed to be a part of this Ascension Portal!  Thank you Niki.

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Would it be helpful to share my experience as a portal member as well as a practitioner (chiropractor) who has worked on another portal member? My friend (also a chiropractor) and I meet regularly and have done for many years to exchange treatments.  We know each other’s spines very well.   What has been fascinating is to see how our bodies have responded to the portal work.  What is really cool is that our bodies are responding and behaving in new ways which we haven’t seen before.  It’s an upgrade! My understanding is that doing this ascension work is a bit like wearing a new pair of shoes.  As our merkabah is building and our energetic body changes, the physical body needs to accommodate those changes.  Sometimes that can feel a bit uncomfortable (like new shoes that need to mould themselves to our feet) while we get used to it. When my friend started the portal in February I was able to observe the clinical changes in her body.  And of course by that stage the silent meditation was more powerful and more integrated with the ?14^th? dimension (can’t remember which) so it made for a smoother transition.  And faster ascension.  While I could tell her system was dealing with something new, there was a high level of organisation while processing that newness.  It was resourced, efficient, capable.  That level of organisation has got more sophisticated since then.  Her body is regularly demonstrating characteristics that I would usually only see when a person is feeling really fabulous (like after a two week holiday or a healing retreat).  This is big news, people!  As a chiropractor, I’m thrilled to see this.  I was taught this was possible but I’ve seldom witnessed this before. Despite this fabulously efficient and resourceful spine, sometimes my friend would be aware of discomfort or physical tension. So again, that describes the mismatch between how quickly or slowly the body can adapt to the changes in the energetic bodies that cause a sense of physical discomfort or symptoms.  Doing some kind of bodywork seems to assist with that transition and help to make those ’new shoes’ more comfortable.

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I’ve had some notable improvements in the last little while that I thought I would share:

1. No longer have heartburn when I eat starchy or sugary foods.

2. A lifelong super sensitive blood sugar response seems to have disappeared – for my whole life I can’t eat simple carbs or sugar or fruit, or drink caffeinated tea etc., without eating protein with it or after it, otherwise I would have a massive blood sugar low within a few hours.  In the last 6 weeks, it doesn’t matter if I eat, or when I eat, or what I eat, I haven’t had any low blood sugar episodes!  Amazing!

3.  Allergy seems to have disappeared.  I have a lifelong serious allergy for which I carry an epipen.  On occasion I have ingested the substance by accident and it is very painful and scary.  This happened a couple of weekends ago, and as I was chewing my second one I suddenly thought “check this’ and I did, and it had the substance.  I had eaten 2 of them, which would normally be a problem for a slip like that.  NO symptoms.  No pain, no reactions.  

4. Sleeping has been marvelous. I used to have problems staying asleep, would wake up several times a night and not be able to get back to sleep.  I have slept for the last 3 weeks mostly all through the night, feeling rested when I wake up, and if I do wake up I easily fall back to sleep.  I’m grateful.

5. My personal emotional boundaries where my son is concerned have been A-1!  Instead of ruminating and worrying about what is happening with him and trying to insert myself to help him make decisions or think things through (he’s 21), or have big emotional responses to what he is doing I’m really ok with it!  I’m in support of him pursuing his dreams, I understand that its his life journey

6. My personal boundaries with my spouse have strengthened in a really good way – in a constructive way that is not conflict producing but actually harmony producing !  Its really amazing and wonderful how (seemingly) small a thing this change is, but in 2 weeks it has produced great results.  

7. My business boundaries/self worth have strengthened – I have my own business and I have the old “customer is always right’ philosophy, which sometimes make me feel pressured about trying to get work done faster (cheaper) than the actual scope should be.  Well again, in the last 3 weeks, I have heard myself calmly, friendly, nicely saying ‘no, its going to take (x) hours, and I can’t do it for less – I don’t work for free’  its just flowing and happening and it comes out and everyone is responding wonderfully.  

8.  An idea for a book that I have been wanting to develop and ‘gel’ that has been percolating but I could never get settled or inspired about suddenly just came together perfectly and with great detail and inspiration during 3 consecutive meditations over 2 days. 

All in all, I’m feeling pretty great, rested, happy, and hopeful (but not anxious or impatient) about some other healing (sinus’, loss of taste and smell returning). I’m so grateful and amazed at these things, and wanted to share my happy observations.

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Hi everyone, I’ve had a 20 year history of intermittent hair loss and the last few years I’ve had several bald spots at my temples. I go through periods where patches of fine baby hair grow through but they never grow longer and eventually fall back out. Last spring my hairline started receding and the sides of my head became very thin. I’ve done restricted eating for over 30 years, thyroid and hormonal issues and after some testing in my early 30s I was told I had male pattern baldness which was such a cop out from the Consultant. I decided to take some photos in January just to see if anything changed over time. Overall, I noticed my hair started growing at lightening speed in February and the tails on my eyebrows were coming back and thickening up. Last September my nails snapped off and they would not grow again without splitting or ripping off. They were also growing like mad and not splitting the last few weeks so I decided to repeat the photos of my hair this week and well, I hope they speak for themselves. I’ve truly had to hold on to the smallest changes to keep me going, but these photos show the changes aren’t that small after all! I’m totally celebrating it as really strong foundational healing Such a long way to go but I’m so pleased I took those photos.

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I do want to mention that I have been trying to get the MTHFR SNP symptoms, EBV and a benign thyroid nodule under control since 2014 by taking methylated Bs and high quality supplements and following a pretty strict diet.  I am pleased to report that I have been off of ALL supplements for the past two months while feeling great. I eat a steady diet of French fries (oven baked) and chocolate and still no need for supplements. My husband calls it the Mystic’s diet…. he might be right. I do eat plenty of other foods but not nearly as clean and healthy as I used to.  My body just doesn’t react poorly to food the way it used to. Where I was once dependent upon the supplements to give me energy and to feel good I feel free to eat whatever I’d like, still have energy with little to no downside and not having to double up on supplements or do a detox. Pretty damn remarkable! Wishing you all a beautiful break!!!

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I am not a eloquent writer but will give a current overview. Miracles – The healing of my physical health that has been transformative, I have no food intolerances, my energy is vastly improved, my time in present moment and healing of developmental trauma.. Totally unrecognizable, I have given up smoking after 20 years, exited a narcissistic relationship that nearly sent me to my death have healed from this in a very short space of time, left my old job that I was in for 10 years that was contributing to poor health and got the job i wanted, attracted a secure relationship who is subscribed to similar multi dimensional beliefs, has had psychic experiences throughout his life and I intuitively feel is an ET soul… The flow and ease of my life noticeably easier and less work, angelic beings have visited and supported my journey numerous times me and source is communicating with me when I am open and willing to receive the information.  My life circumstances are increasingly clear. I found the portal after detoxing from substances as was 10 years in addiction and since come off my antidepressants my story is similar to many – I come from a long line of generational trauma was a runaway at 16 and was in the world alone to survive. I feel unafraid of the doubt but now wish it to let it serve me as growth, I find myself coming to the conclusion that my life circumstances and infinite possibilities can only really be achieved with my connection with Source…. The placebo is real, anything can become reality. 

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Another amazing healing story – this time it is my 72-yr-old sister who has had challenges with her eyesight (both cataract and glaucoma surgery) and her hearing for the past few years. She moved into our jointly-owned house last July, changed her diet, already lost close to 50 lbs, and since August has been regularly listening in on our Sunday healing circles. Today at her eye specialist’s appointment, she was delighted to be told that the optic nerve is looking much better than her previous specialist’s report from several months ago, and things are on the upswing!  While her health still has a ways to go, we believe that these problems will be fully resolved because of this ascension school and because of this powerful healing circle. Thank you Niki, and everyone in our most amazing group!! This is beyond fabulous!

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So here it goes, putting it out there: to date my eye sight has shifted…started noticing that i can see more clearly long distance with my reading glasses on…i know right crazy…thx Core Ascension and, kinda personal…but my lymphatic system issue is lessening..small but I am noticing it in the mirror…happy tears thx Core Ascension also, just within the past 2 weeks…my bad left leg, pelvic injury that messed up my life 4 yrs ago…is changing a bit ..I m  relying less on pain reducing products.. I am walking less with a limp…but still there… Hope others in the portal are just getting some glimpses of the miracles…i just keep asking Source for assistance and keep Core Ascension strapped to my body…like a big hug. hope the miracles continue, i want to be back to full  youthful physical health…cheers 

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I had posted previously about how the decades-long spondylolisthesis issues in my spine were starting to resolve into a non-event. There is an even bigger story… over I had been diagnosed with six different spinal issues also including Osteopenia, Scoliosis, Arthritis, and Spinal Stenosis. I must admit that i never really bought into any of this, until i’d be brought to my knees in pain on too many occasions. Now, however, I know that they are all resolving into not being factors affecting my life at all. I give most of the credit to this ascension work. It has felt so profound and relevant…what i had been seeking for many years. My own physical well-being is only the beginning of something much bigger.

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I thought I’d share my experience: My leaky gut is healed and I am no longer sensitive to dairy or sugar. The childhood trauma I experienced feels like its something that happened to me in a dream.  I’m no longer afraid of something bad jumping into my life. My heart is pumping Joy through my body with my blood and I’m uplifted and light-hearted. The dark vertical ridges that were on all 10 of my fingernails (probably a vitamin deficiency) is now only on 4 of them The seborrheic eczema that is on my forehead was unsightly and itchy but now is MUCH less puffy and red! The motion sickness that I’ve suffered since childhood (probably from Meniere’s syndrome) is MUCH better and less frequent. The dry eyes, bladder spasms and arthritic fingers (probably from sjogren’s syndrome) are MUCH better. I don’t get chronic infections any more and the weird bumps on my elbow (probably from epstein barr) are much less hard and pokey-outy. My struggle with co-dependence is much less difficult and my narcissistic mate is befuddled.  All these wonderful things have happened and my CC level is probably around the 70s-80s, I’m guessing.  I’m SO excited about the healing that lies ahead as our merkabah grows!  THANK YOU, Niki, for everything!

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I now only need to wear my glasses for reading. This AM i was reading something and looked up towards my balcony & trees (still wearing my glasses), and wow there was no blurriness , no head dizzy feeling that i usually experience  if i forgot to take my glasses off b/f looking long distance.  Then the words “wait, what?” floated in my mind…and then …yes its core ascension. And i have noticed that night driving is not as strenuous…having to squint…I LOVE THIS….1600 here we come. thx Niki for all of your work, support , guidance and kindness through this.

YES!! That’s so awesome for you, and I’m experiencing a major shift in eyesight too. I have always had terrible vision (both near and far); I could properly see only about six inches in front of my eyes without my glasses. Last month I started to have the major shift in my eyes. It seemed to coincide with reaching CC29 and the odd healing energy experience I had. I can actually see pretty well in the shower now and at my bathroom sink without my glasses!!! There is still some blurriness but I had the realization of “wait…I don’t have my glasses on and I can basically see what I’m doing in the shower” . I know I for sure need new glasses (I’m starting to get symptoms from the too strong prescription), but I’m trying to wait as long as I can since I’m sure my eyes will continue to shift as I get to CC1600

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I have been a portal member since the beginning, after initially joining your weekly meditation sessions. I have had quite large changes in my life since joining the portal. These have included practical changes, like moving back to the US after many years abroad, and separating from my husband of many years. I have also changed internally a lot (which precipitated the practical changes): much greater confidence, decreased anxiety, and a greater connection to Source.

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 I just wanted to thank you for sharing the information we received about changes in relationships from this past Saturday’s healing ceremony. It was so helpful for me! For many months, I have been struggling with a huge resistance towards my sister. And I was beating myself up a bit for feeling that way. Even though my sister had said some things in the past that hurt me, I felt that I should have been able to release those feelings of hurt through the emotional vipassana process and move on. But in spite of doing all that work, and practising the loving kindness meditation, the resistance was still there. I just couldn’t figure it out. I knew that I didn’t want to have a conversation with her about it because I didn’t even know why I was resisting her so badly. But I just kept my distance for a while and it seems to have lessened recently. I am now able to spend time with her in very small doses. but I no longer feel the same joyful, excitement I once felt when we used to spend time together.  So, thank you for that very timely healing ceremony. It validated what I was feeling. And gave me permission to allow myself to accept these changes in our relationship. The chart you showed us with our frequencies not aligning makes perfect sense to me and is so helpful! I definitely recognize that I come from a family where strong family bloodlines are important, and to try to keep those ties strong, but I recognize that Source and our Source Teams help us find the people that resonate best with us if we are willing to let go and flow. I am happy to report that I have made many strong, authentic connections with people who do resonate with me because of the work I have done in this portal. And I am very grateful for that. Thank you Niki and fellow Ascension portal members!

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I feel SO blessed to know that I am / we are in the right place at the right time!  The guidance, the protection, the tribe, the LOVE!  It is breathtaking.  Thank you Niki, Source Team, coaches and Portal family  and I finally got 100% correct in pendulum testing, YAY !!!!!

I love love love this portal. I have been a member since the beginning.  I have listened to all of the healing circles and zoom calls on replay. I really appreciate you and all we are up to in the portal.  I am very happy to do this work quietly for the benefit of mankind and the world at large.

I’ve been in this portal since the beginning and following your work before then and hold much gratitude for you. I’ve made a lot of progress since then! You’ve been an inspiration both in fostering dedication to this work along with faith in the process which is paying off.Tremendous progress is being made on my health which I will write about as it unfolds a bit more! This portal and these teachings have been life changing. Thank you!

I feel very fortunate-not only to have found you and this work, but for connecting me with my dear sisters-the NYC Merkababes! (We are bringing in and anchoring the Light in the New York City area

I feel so much gratitude for you Niki for gently guiding us on this journey of discovery, healing, truth and discernment. I feel prepared to ride out the oncoming storm of chaos in the world, whereas if I didn’t have this information and level of understanding, I would be living in fear and despair for what is going on.

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Just a quick update on what happened re. benefits…  A few weeks ago I got a letter to say that I’d been placed in the ESA support group, without a medical!!! I can’t emphasis enough how awful those ‘medicals’ are, and how long it takes to recover from them when they do happen, so to be spared that was more than a relief… it was a total miracle!!! And since I got that result my health has begun to improve- my physical pain was about 80% better within a week, my sleep is getting better and my energy is beginning to improve too  But most important of all is that I feel like Source has really had my back through this- first in providing me with doctors appointments so that I could get some evidence and then giving me this fabulous result! I was a one-laner so progress on physical healing is still slow, but being supported in this way gives me so much faith in this process, and that hopefully soon I will heal physically and no longer even need to claim benefits… So thank you again Source! And thank you too to everyone who wished me well in this process, much love to you all

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The interview went really well and I got the job! I was still nervous but I felt something shift and I was able to deliver the presentation with confidence that came from somewhere. It really is a big shift from how I’ve felt doing interviews or presentations in the past. It’s hard to put into words but it was like I no longer feared criticism in a life or death sort of way! Plus I felt more confident about myself. Yes maybe some of this change is age and experience but I think it was more than that too. It’s a teaching job so I will have to get more comfortable with being visible and in charge! It’s only a part time zero hours job with Adult Community Learning teaching Arts & Craft, but it feels like a big step forward. I haven’t taught a class for over a decade although I’ve worked in education as support for years. Turns out that qualification I did in 2008 was useful after all! Mind blowing and so powerful. My breathing issues have all since diminished.

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I’ve been in this portal from the beginning and like so many other people here I can honestly say that I am not the same person as I used to be. To make a long story short, the biggest thing for me is that I am happy in my marriage for the first time in 36 years (actually all the way from the start of my relationship with my husband) I am 52 years old and we’ve been together since I was 16 and he 20!

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Hi Niki. Back in July you told me my breathing problems were due to stress from financial beliefs and that I wouldn’t complete with the 18th for the same reason. I bought the book The Having, as you suggested, and since I have been practicing the “Having” and changing the narrative around my financial beliefs, money has flowed in. My parents gifted me a cheque if $7000 and my work gave me triple time for a days work instead of the agreed double time for working on Thanksgiving. I paid an unexpected vet bill of $2000 without grumping and feeling ripped off and angry. I paid it with the thought that I am so grateful to afford this bill and thankful that my doggie is no longer in pain! Mind blowing and so powerful. My breathing issues have all since diminished.

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Months ago I had a Divine Feminine &  Masculine Healing Session with Christine in June showing my Divine Feminine was a little lower than the Masculine (86% vs 91%). She recommended I cultivate more female friendships and amazingly right away I met a couple of women who we connected on so many levels ! These friendships are wonderful for me because they live only 15-20 minutes away, where most of my other friends live 40-60 minutes away. I’ve lived in the Santa Cruz mountains 5 years now and am finding ways to connect to this community. I have attended a couple string concerts, I made another new friend who works at our new shoe store & lives only 1/2 mile away!  I’ve also reconnected with friends who live in Silcon Valley. I felt so supported on 11/13  spending time w/ 2 different friends and that evening with my daughter, having female energy surround me as it was my mom’s birthday~ who died 4/2019. I am happy I really took care of myself in this way, particularly on that day. Today I’m headed to a women’s retreat here in the mountains~ excited to meet some local women & have some playful & creative experiences together! From the Soul Art classes my intention was to lovingly connect to myself in playful and creative ways……this theme continues! I hope this brings some encouragement to you~ now it’s time to meditate! 

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Just want to thank you for your incredible job, it definitely made a huge impact in my life. Lately I had my little miracles in a simple day to day tasks, my  interpersonal communication significantly improved, I always struggled to fit in and had to adjust to be accepted, difficult personal relationships, still single, don’t have family of my own but accepted me as I am and filling happier and much more confident

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I have had amazing progress and I have had so much healing and amazing things happen in my life since joining the portal.  I have learned so much from watching the Hot Seat calls. Lastly, thank you so much Niki, this has been an amazing journey I have shared with you and this group.  I am a totally different person than the one that started this journey and I am grateful.  Thank you

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